The Worst Disease to Hit Mankind

And what you can do about it…

In His Name

Over the many years of being a “Christian”, I have been “taught” how to “pray”.  I quote those words because I think they have been misused or misunderstood.  At first I was taught by the Holy Spirit; but the longer I was around people who had been in the church longer than me I began to pick up some of their habits. Then it was expected I should pray in a certain way and take classes to learn how to pray.

A vending machine
has no will,
money is put in,
a button is pushed,
and what the person pushing
the button wants comes out

Today though, I want to discuss the practice of what may have become more like a formula many Christians use to put emphasis on their prayers. One of the things the Lord had shown me during those three days almost three years ago, was a vending machine. When He showed me this He spoke,”I am not a vending machine but people have made me into a vending machine“.  See a vending machine has no will, money is put in, a button is pushed, and what the person pushing the button wants comes out. We, as Christians, may have started at a wrong starting point with our view of God. We unknowingly may think God has no will in circumstances of life and yet, His plan comes above everything else. I can only discern what I believe to be God’s will as each circumstance comes to me through this lifetime.  His Holy Spirit inside me tells me and gives me unction to pray instead of praying a prayer as someone (man) desires me to…but wait I am getting ahead of myself.

Let me try to explain. The scripture that I want to use is in Acts 3:16. This is where the apostles are headed to the temple and there is a man who is sitting at the Beautiful Gate begging for money because he has been crippled since birth and the apostles say they do not have money but what they do have….here let’s enter in:

“Kefa said, “I don’t have silver, and I don’t have gold, but what I do have I give to you: in the name of the Messiah, Yeshua of Natzeret, walk!” And taking hold of him by his right hand, Kefa pulled him up. Instantly his feet and ankles became strong; so that he sprang up, stood a moment, and began walking. Then he entered the Temple court with them, walking and leaping and praising God!
‭‭Acts of Emissaries of Yeshua (Act)‬ ‭3:6-8 CJB‬

In His Name…..I have ended many prayers this way.  Many times knowing or sensing what I had just prayed wasn’t what God wanted me to pray.  Yet, the expectation was for me to pray this way because if I didn’t then God wouldn’t be seen as good and/or I IMG_1656would not be praying correctly according to man.  Let me make this very clear: God is good all the time despite the circumstances I am in.  Yet, in the past, I felt I needed to pray a way directed by man rather than God.  For this I have been convinced I was wrong and have gone back to my childlike trust in God and what His will is in each circumstance.  See we apply an attribute to God and then make it a blanket statement not realizing that it might mean something far greater than what we see it as.  Let me use this as an example.  God hates sickness. Yes, God holds no account to sickness.  It is not part of His realm.  But I want you to think of the worst sickness or disease to ever hit mankind.  Maybe it could be the plague, AIDS, cancer or….there are many to choose from.  To me though the worst sickness or disease is actually the original fall.  This is a disease that has attacked every single human being in the world.  Our brokenness is what has brought so much strife, division, hatred, and evil acts perpetrated on other humans and the earth. This sickness/disease we are all born with.  Jesus carried this for us at the Cross.  He made a way to rid humanity of this awful disease.  This sickness that 65893174-28F6-48F3-811B-339FC93F8B10has caused so many sicknesses. And with that He also took the shame of all of us who have performed these acts.  I want the world to see the largeness of what God actually did through His Son on the Cross.  We get caught up in the smaller picture and with that fear creeps in.  What if I die?  Well….we shall all die and as Christians we should not fear this or the second death.  Because truly we live forever.  We should not be like the Goyim (the unbelievers).

So, back to prayer.  Here is the definition of the Greek word for “name” from

3686 ónoma – name; (figuratively) the manifestation or revelation of someone’s character, i.e. as distinguishing them from all others. Thus “praying in the name of Christ” means to pray as directed (authorized) by Him, bringing revelation that flows out of being in His presence. “Praying in Jesus’ name” therefore is not a “religious formula” just to end prayers (or get what we want)!

[“According to Hebrew notions, a name is inseparable from the person to whom it belongs, i.e. it is something of his essence. Therefore, in the case of the God, it is specially sacred” (Souter).]

Praying “in His Name” means we receive revelation from Him as to what to pray.  It is not simply to tag this on in hopes you are praying what He desires.  It actually means you are praying as directed by the Holy Spirit in that instance. As stated above, Hebrews understand that the name is part of the person….the essence of that person and is inseparable from the person.  A name is very important to Hebrews.  As it should be for all of us.  As believers in Christ, we have His essence known as the Holy Spirit residing within us.  Inside of us we know, otherwise called discernment, what, where and when to pray.  We have the mind of Christ, His essence, in us.  We pray in His Name as we call out His will in this earth realm as it lines up with His larger picture, not yours.  His larger picture, as I have read in scripture, is that the world may know His Name.  He simply does not want one person, human, to be separated from Him.  As we pray, this is the larger picture. In the above historical story of the man being healed at the Beautiful Gate, God’s larger picture evolves.  This isn’t saying God didn’t want this man healed but there was a larger picture. Let’s finish the story here:

Everyone saw him walking and praising God. They recognized him as the same man who had formerly sat begging at the Beautiful Gate of the Temple, and they were utterly amazed and confounded at what had happened to him. While he clung to Kefa and Yochanan, all the people came running in astonishment toward them in Shlomo’s Colonnade. Seeing this, Kefa addressed the people: “Men of Isra’el! Why are you amazed at this? Or why do you stare at us as if we had made this man walk through some power or godliness of our own? The God of Avraham, Yitz’chak and Ya‘akov, the God of our fathers, has glorified his servant Yeshua — the same Yeshua you handed over and disowned before Pilate, even after he had decided to release him. You denied the holy and innocent one, and instead asked for the reprieve of a murderer! You killed the author of life! “But God has raised him from the dead! Of this we are witnesses.” “And it is through putting trust in his name that his name has given strength to this man whom you see and know. Yes, it is the trust that comes through Yeshua which has given him this perfect healing in the presence of you all.” Acts of Emissaries of Yeshua (Act)‬ ‭3:9-16CJB‬

God glorified His Servant Yeshua.  Simply making it known Who He is.  Trust in His essence, His Name.  Trust in Who He is that gave strength and perfect healing to this man in their presence.  We have always focused on the healing but not so much about the people present. Peter was very straightforward telling these Jews the very same man with the name Yeshua, Jesus, this man who You disowned and denied as holy and innocent is the very same One Whose essence in them brought healing to this man whom had been crippled since birth.  This was just what was needed at this point, in these people’s lives to make Him known to them.  Each situation is different because each person is different.  God knows us perfectly and knows what needs to be done in each situation.  We are simply to trust (faith) Him with the outcomes.  Fully knowing the worst disease to ever hit mankind has been abolished by the King of kings on the Cross.  In His Name, ❤️

We All Have Our Storms

How I see this as the beginning and how God sees the beginning are two different viewpoints…but I will start where I see the beginning; otherwise this would become a book not a blog, lol!!

img_1103It started for me when I stood in the shadow of the Colosseum in Rome, Italy.  I have tried to describe the sensation I had while standing in a place in the time period I live in but also knowing the history of this place.  I knew Paul may have walked in the same streets I was walking on and so many early Christians had definitely walked. As I stood there I fully realized: We all have our storms we must weather.  Since then the story of Jesus in the boat with the disciples has been in my mind.  Along with a book I had read by Ted Dekker two years ago.  While pondering the scripture with Jesus in the boat there was a story from my past that also kept coming forward.  Let’s start with the story: I was in high school and although I had done nothing that would even hint towards what would be whispered about me it didn’t stop the rumor that I was pregnant from going around the school.  I went home devastated and my mother told me that the truth would come out. Which of course was an easy one since in nine months there was no pregnancy or baby. I think for most of us our name being dragged in the mud or lies/rumors being told can be devastating. It can ruin people’s livelihoods and yet…God wanted to show me something.

Two years ago when my name began to be drug through the mud I wanted to, just like I wanted in high school, find out where it started at and confront the person or persons. I was angry and wronged.  I think it is difficult for anyone to sit back and listen to what is being said about you that is not true.  For me it has been a desire to clear my name and in doing that clear others too.  There is this piece inside of me that desires the truth and God made me that way and it is good.  Yet again, I knew God wanted to show me something deeper.

A few days ago I woke up feeling so much peace.  I didn’t ask for it, I didn’t pray for hours, I didn’t do anything.  God hears our hearts’ prayers because I had this peace but didn’t understand why I felt such peace.  A couple of days later, still in peace, I woke up and I distinctly heard the Lord say to me:

“It is time to let go of the need to clear your name. Trust Me.”

With this statement I knew that is exactly what He had done for me…taken away my need to clear my name and gave me peace.  I felt safe.  This came from the innermost place within me, my heart.

Please remember: I didn’t do this for myself or go through any particular steps, God simply did it for me, in His time and exactly when I needed it.  And He will do the same for you, because He loves you and desires the best for you.  (Luke 11:13)

After He stated this, He again reminded me of when He was in the boat with His disciples and the book I had read two years ago: 30 A.D. by Ted Dekker.  In this book I had highlighted some things when I had read it and I felt driven to go look.  Here I want to share a few quotes from the book:

“And why does man get angry? Because he feels threatened or wronged. And why does he feel threatened? Because he does not feel safe.”

“No threat in a rumor.”

“Nothing in this world threatens you.”

and lastly: “Release the fear your understanding shows you in the storm…..By trusting Me instead, not the storm and not the boat.”

See the disciples were of little faith or maybe better understood as little trust when they feared the storm and feared for their safety.  What was of greatest importance was the fact that Jesus was in their boat.  This is when I understood that the boat was the perfect example of our heart. What I was beginning to understand is nothing in this world threatens us, as Believers (faith in, trust in) in Christ.  This is how I knew Christians could walk into the Colosseum and face such horrible things.  They lived from a particular place that I wanted to understand and God was helping me to understand.

img_1312Let me dig a little deeper and hopefully put a picture to this.  In the Old Testament the Glory of the Lord was in the temple and now He lives in us, in our heart.  This fact led me to study the word: heart, among many others.  Today though all I want to discuss is the word heart in scripture to bring the fullness out of what Christ did on the Cross and what He is doing inside of us!!! Here the scripture from Romans 6:17:

“But thanks be to God that though you were slaves of sin, you became obedient from the heart to that form of teaching to which you were committed, and having been freed from sin, you became slaves of righteousness.” NASB‬‬

Let’s look at the word heart in Greek, which will give us the fullness of what is being talked about

Strong’s Concordance
kardia: heart
Original Word: καρδία, ας, ἡ
Part of Speech: Noun, Feminine
Transliteration: kardia
Phonetic Spelling: (kar-dee’-ah)
Short Definition: the heart, inner life, intention
Definition: lit: the heart; mind, character, inner self, will, intention, center.
HELPS Word-studies
2588 kardía – heart; “the affective center of our being” and the capacity of moral preference (volitional desire, choice; see P. Hughs, 2 Cor, 354); “desire-producer that makes us tick” (G. Archer), i.e our “desire-decisions” that establish who we really are.  [Heart (2588 /kardía) is mentioned over 800 times in Scripture, but never referring to the literal physical pump that drives the blood. That is, “heart” is only used figuratively (both in the OT and NT.]  universally, καρδία denotes the seat and center of all physical and spiritual life.

Let’s look at the scripture in Ephesians 3:17, where it states exactly where Christ comes to dwell:

“so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the Lordʼs holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ,” NASB

The heart is the center of our being when used in scripture. It not only contains the physical part but the spiritual part of us. When we have declared with our mouth Jesus is Lord and believed (trusted, faith) in our heart that God raised Him from the dead you will be saved (Romans 10:9). In this the Holy Spirit resides in your heart, the center of your whole being.  Kingdom of heaven resides now within the center of your being. Kingdom meaning rule of God in your heart- both physically and spiritually.  Heaven meaning we truly are seated in heavenly places with Christ (Ephesians 2:6).   This is the kingdom of heaven in us and through us.

As I saw this from a much newer perspective, I understood more of what God did in me, for me and my trust in Him deepened. I saw God more clearly, exactly what I have asked for…to see Him as clear as He sees me.  This is a lifelong, eternal relationship. I did not do this myself, I didn’t in and of myself heal myself…no….. I simply live from the fact that Christ lives in me, God has reign over my heart and He means good for me even in the midst of the storm, there is a peace that comes only from Him-it is always there, trust not in your boat (whatever that may be) nor fear what the storm can do to you.

This truth was born out of the fact in trusting (believing) God that I am safe in Jesus, always…no matter what things may look like.

This is something we constantly need to be reminded of, this is why the Body of Christ is so important for one another. The reminder of exactly where you are living from- a heart, your whole being: physical and spiritual where God dwells and has brought His kingdom into.

Letting go of my boat (my name being cleared) didn’t make what was done to me right, it also doesn’t mean I don’t speak truth when called or needed.  What it means is that it is no longer my “end result”, I don’t ever have to see it happen.  If it does great, if it doesn’t I will be okay because:

I trust God and His larger plan.

Amazing Grace, Amazing Peace ❤️